My life is a miraculous account of God’s immeasurable grace. When I think back to the choices I made and the pits to which I fell…it’s truly a miracle that I am even alive today to share this with you.

Before I was even born I had the challenges of life confronting me. During my mother’s unwanted pregnancy she and her mother tried to abort me with very primitive methods I shall not mention. My father was a criminal minded and angry individual that was never in my life, but he just surfaced on the outside of my life and caused chaos. My parents were very young and were unable to take care of me due to their teen drug and alcohol abuse. So I was raised by my father’s sister and parents who I am so grateful to for sacrificing their lives to try to give me a better life than the one I was destined to.

During my early teen years I also fell deep into the bondages of drug and alcohol abuse.  Which I was introduced to so innocently. Talk about family curses. I was on a road to self-destruction. I had grown up in a household of hidden truths and mis-direction. In my mid twenties I began my search for truth. I had been living a life of heavy drug usage, alcohol abuse, promiscuous sex, crime & rebellion. I made all these bad choices searching for self-worth…for any answers to why I existed. All that I tried, all that I experienced in life had no satisfaction. Nothing filled the empty void that I was feeling.

I wanted to be the cool person, the one to look to. As I sought out who I was I had the nerve to want to tell people who they should be. I was rolling in mass confusion. Having been involved with crime and rebellion what came with all that was also a life of paranoia and distrust of everyone I came in contact with…everyone. I was now living a life of isolation. Nothing gave me the answer I was seeking…until that day in the fall of 2003, when I was confronted with the truth I had always been seeking. I was given a CD of a well know Pastor from Southern California…as I listened to his sermon I began to realize that all this time my answers were in Jesus Christ. I knew of Jesus but I really didn’t KNOW HIM.

The very next day of listening to that CD, I began to feel a harsh tugging at my heart. I didn’t know what was going on with me emotionally and physically. Tears started pouring from my eyes…and all things that I had done in my past began to flash through my mind like a kaleidoscope picture show. As I cried uncontrollably for many hours…I was compelled to pick up the bible I had been given months prior. For 3 days I shut my self off from the world to be with my God. Three days of darkness crossing over into the light. On the evening of the third day…I was forever changed. Through this major event in my life I met the living Christ.

I found myself no longer having the need to run or hide anymore. I felt a peace come upon my life. A peace I had never felt since my existence. I no longer had the desire to hide behind sex, drugs, drinking, smoking or lying. God amazingly delivered me. I was set free by the power of Jesus Christ.

Sure there were challenges that continued in my life such as loss of family and friends. I found the answer I had been seeking but as I began to proclaim God’s truth many rejected and persecuted me. But, that’s okay…I died with Christ and I have been raised with Him as well. One great thing is I didn’t lose everyone…due to my new found faith and my no compromise behavior for God…my mother gave her life to the Lord and I developed a closer relationship with her.